Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Food for thought

Today I am working on a reflective paper for a course I took last spring. The course: Fat Studies. Yes,

... FAT as in obese, overweight or XXXL. In my reflecting, I realized how much I enjoyed this

course.

This course examines body weight, shape and size and an area of human difference subject to privilege and discrimination that intersects with other systems of oppression based on gender, race class, age, sexual orientation and ability’. I took the course as an opportunity to better understand the population I wanted to work with for my dissertation. Little did I know, there was abundant and compelling research on ‘fat’ people. I wanted to share with you all a fantastic journal that promotes a healthy life at any size.... even fat. Here is the link .......
http://www.bulimia.com/client/client_pages/HAESprotected/HAES20-1.pdf

here are more articles from the journal

http://www.bulimia.com/client/client_pages/haespdfs.cfm

Here is my take on the course and part of what I have been working on today - you are forewarned this is a rough draft. 

I have come to learn that fat bias is deeply ingrained in our culture and simply having a conversation about it is challenging.  Several students in the course blatantly stated that fat people were disgusting and bones were sexy. Like most students in the course, I initially believed the traditional health paradigm* that weight equals health. Simply put, the skinnier you are the healthier you are. Most people would agree with this because of the bombardment of ‘weight loss’ promotion and the “War on Obesity” campaign. This class challenged the mainstream mentality about fat people. We looked at cultural and personal biases and questioned them. This class broadened my spectrum and challenged me to view life from another perspective. Several professional and personal aspects of my life were influenced from this course.
            Personally, I regularly weighed myself and based my worth on weight. I had been told my entire life that  ‘if you are not within this BMI range, then you are overweight, that is unhealthy and you are bad’. Looking back, it was emotionally exhausting to get on and off the scale, while holding my breath and thinking, “will I be healthy today?”. Even though I exercised regularly and ate fresh fruits and vegetables, the answer was always no. I finally decided to get off this emotional roller coaster and base my health on the healthy activities I did every day. I have not weighed myself for almost a year while the byproduct of this behavior is my emotional and physical health has never been better.  I feel more encouraged to exercise with the knowledge that I am doing this for my health, not for a number.  This also seeped into my job as a fitness trainer.
            In my professional life, as a personal trainer I work with a variety of body types where the main goal is weight loss. I have now shifted my training style to place the focus to overall health. I now tell my clients that I do not want to weight them. They are always shocked and simultaneously relieved that I don’t want them to get on a scale or even take their measurements.  When they ask why, I say that their worth is not based on the scale and as long as they are being active I can’t ask for more. Needless to say, I have a long waiting list for new clients and have never seen so many physical and emotional improvements.
            Lastly, my professional academic career has been greatly impacted. I never quite understood the emotional stress that fat people are subject to.  As a student studying apparel design, sport and exercise psychology and women’s studies I have come to understand the physical and emotional challenges fat men and women face in our culture.
            The psychological aspects of the course meshed very well with my field of study. I never quite understood the emotional stress that fat people are subject to.  As a student studying apparel design, sport and exercise psychology and women’s studies I have come to understand the physical and emotional challenges fat men and women face in our culture.
            One of the most challenging parts of this course was that I had to look at some of my personal biases. Biases towards myself and others were surprising. I never knew there was such a concept as ‘thin privilege’. Every college student should challenge the mainstream thoughts and broaden their education through this course. 

*paradigm |ˈparəˌdīm| nountechnical a typical example or pattern of something; a model: there is a newparadigm for public art in this country.• worldview underlying the theories and methodology of a particular scientific subject: the discovery of universal gravitation became the paradigm ofsuccessful science.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Breathing

What a whirl wind weekend. Friday night was full of grading paper and homework. While Saturday was full of celebrating Jay's 30th birthday. His family arrived Saturday early afternoon and we had lunch then walked around campus. After that, we went to the Tyee Winery and sampled some delicious vino! Then it was necessary to stop back at Jays house to feed Mugsy... or at least that what was Jay thought we were going back for. Little did he know, 30 of his friends and family were waiting at his house with the lights off to surprise him for his 30th birthday. Ohh to see the expression on his face. (Pictures to come) It was an aloha theme with a ton of food and drink. We stayed up late into the night to play pool and spend time with family. Something I value more and more the older I get. There is a lot of transition, growth and wonder happening at this point in life.

I am so excited for the adventure in life and am doing my best to 'just breath' and remember that everything will (and always does) work out for the best.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Hello publishing connections!

I am feeling really big time right now, even though I know I am not :) The Fairchild publishing house just called me and asked me where I was in the process of graduation and job search. Well, it was really fun to tell them I am have found a great place to build my teaching and scholarship foundation blha blha bhal that is besides the point..... BUT........ they are sending me possible books to use for the new courses and I love books so I am really excited! ALSO, they were touching base to see if I was still interested in co-authoring a product development book. After I finish my dissertation I will begin the process of writing an academic book for an undergraduate course. It is exciting to think that someday a college student will have a book with my name on it. Another fun fact: college professors write the majority of the books used in educational courses! Now that I have developed myself in the academic field it is really fun to go book shopping because I can say, "oh I know that author, she (sometimes he) was a professor of mine at WSU or I met them at a conference"....... A very exciting thing to think about and a future goal of mine.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Whoa, Totally wiped out

Today is one of those days that feels like it will never end. It has been long and slow and kind of irritating. Can a day be irritating? well, it feels like it. In lecture today I decided to have the students play a jeopardy game in order to help them prep for the midterm exam this Friday. Instead of being nice and playing well with each other, they got very competitive to the point of being rude to me. I was so surprised by their actions, one student even said to me, 'you are corrupt and picking favorites', Whoa, really? In my attempt to make learning fun, I was growled at :(. Instead of having a fun friendly competition, it turned into, 'our hand was up first', 'your cheating', 'this is stupid', do we have to stay? and on and on it went. As much as i enjoy the academic challenge of learning and stretching my brain to think in new ways, I do not like the feeling that I am babysitting children. Some times I feel like I am working with 5 year olds. But I guess that is what college is about, learning who you are, who you want to be, how to interact with others and maybe even trying to fluster your teacher. Well, it worked. I was flustered to the point of not even knowing what to say. It is hard to be a younger teacher as I guess there are challenges teaching at any age but anyways I guess my point is......teaching today was not fun. Hoping teaching tomorrow is better.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Thank you IRB!

I finally got an email from IRB- internal review board- with some feedback. They want me to change the wording of a few sentences so it is legal. Just kind of mumbo jumbo stuff. But, I am happily fixing their requests and hoping to get approval by the end of this week.

I feel as though once I get approval I will be swamped with the responsibility of research. I am so excited to get this thing rolling! I have even more motivation with my job offer. I have four women who are ready to start the research process...... I am not sure if I have REALLY gone over what my dissertation is about. Well... here is an overview of the research process....... only if you are interested.. slightly munbo jumbo as well....... in brief- I want to explore how overweight women feel about exercise clothing. What they currently have (if any) and then I will send them a Nike outfit and see how they feel about that outfit, if anything at all.

PURPOSE:

Description of Research: The purpose of this research is to explore the experiences overweight adult women have with athletic apparel. 
The main objectives of the study are:
1)     To determine overweight adult women’s experiences with athletic clothing.
2)    To describe the preferred styles of athletic apparel for overweight adult women.
3)     To determine if clothing for physical activity among overweight adult women is a factor to engaging in physical activity.
4)    To describe how overweight women view the purpose of athletic apparel in relation to physical activity.
            5)    To determine what coping behaviors overweight women engage in associated with                              social comparison of self to the cultural beauty ideal. 
PHASES:
Phase 1: Recruitment- If a participant desires to volunteer for the study they will contact the student researcher via email: christed@onid.orst.edu. 

Phase 2: The researcher will email the participant the alternative consent document. The email will include the following statement “Thank you for contacting me about volunteering for a research study. Based on your interest, you are a woman ages 30-65, wear a size 16-26, with a waist between 38.5” to 51.5”, a bust between 44.5” and 56.5”, with Internet access/Skype. This study is to explore experiences with athletic clothing. Please read the attached document and contact me to schedule a Skype or phone conversation to clarify the research process. Thank you! Sincerely, Debbie Christel.”

Phase 3: During the initial conversation, the eligibility screening and informed consent will take place.  The researcher will confirm the participant fits within the eligibility screening.  Upon giving confirmation to screening requiremtns, volunteering for the study, and giving oral consent, participants will be asked to fill out a basic demographic profile including age, socioeconomic status, race, ethnicity, income, marital status, occupancy, email, address, if they have children, the Rosenburg self esteem survey and a Social Physique Anxiety measure. The survey takes less than 10 minutes. The basic demographics, the Rosenburg self esteem survey and the Social Psyique Anxiety survey are viewable at the following links:
  
Phase 4: After completion of the survey, they will be asked to select an athletic outfit from a PDF file that is emailed to them. The PDF contains images of four apparel items. Two tops and two bottoms are to be selected from. Each participant will select one top and one bottom that will then be mailed to their provided address in the demographics.

Phase 5: Following garment selection, participants will be introduced to email prompts. The participant’s will respond to prompts including thoughts and feelings about the clothing.

The first prompt will be emailed after the initial contact and oral consent. Approximately one week later, and every week following, another prompt will be emailed until the completion of the interviews. Totaling four email prompts.


Phase 6: Upon receiving the clothing the participants will schedule a Skype™ interview with the researcher within 7 days of receiving the clothing. There will then be one or two follow up interviews four weeks later. Skype interviews will be scheduled through email. The interview(s) will take approximately 30 minutes to one hour.  The following outline describes the questions that will be asked.

The final phase 7: The participants will be asked if they know anyone who might be interested in participating in the study.  

So yeah........ if you have made it this far I hope you are not about to fall asleep!!!! I know the language is verbous and daunting but it is the way the cookie crumbles and I figure I better figure out how to do it! 

Hmmmmm. any other updates from Corvallis, OR...... I got my hair cut today :) That was fun, I really like the lady who does my hair, she is sweet and so fun to chat with. 

This is what Mugsy is up to...... jealous much?


Sunday, February 19, 2012

West Virginia University? Why not?

Friday afternoon, sitting in my office, grading papers and my phone rings...... I see on the caller ID Morgantown, WV. I know it is the call that I have been waiting an entire month for. This is the call that is either going to offer me a position at WVU or not. The call was in my favor and they offered me a 9-month, tenure track assistant professor position! Yeah! I was thrilled! I did not accept right away because I have to negotiate a few things first..... salary, a travel stipend (moving from Oregon to West Virginia will not be cheap), some equipment and trainings as well as a teaching assistant. Ahhhhhh, it is still settling in that in 5 months I'll be moving into a career as a professor and researcher. Whoa. Guess the "real world" is just around the corner. Well, I actually think I am in the real world right now. Not much will change, I will still be teaching and researching just in a new place. I will just have my own office, research support, a salary for the first time in my life and an entire mountain of new trials to explore.

Wondering where Morgantown is??? I had to look at a map before I went there because I had no idea.

Welp, there it is. 2,610 miles from Portland, OR. Whoa.


But, if anyone knows me, they know I like adventure. This will be one exciting adventure. Don't worry though, the PNW is my home. My family is in the PNW and when it is all said and done, I know that is where I want to be. 

Mixed emotions right now: Excited, proud, nervous, anxious, relieved, curious and grateful. 

First a Coug, then a Beav, now a Mountaineer.